Cancer-stricken Jade Goody has revealed that her disease doesn't haunt her as much as its effects.
Goody has gone bald after undergoing chemotherapy and is exhausted trying to hide it.
And she wants people to see the ravages of the disease because she says it will help her, and it will prepare them.
"My whole life I've had to laugh at myself before other people do. I've had to deal with stuff that other people have never had to deal with. It's better that I say bad things about me before others do," News of the World quoted her, as saying.
"And that's why I'm doing this now. I know people will say, 'Why is she whacking her bald head out in a newspaper?'
"But I'd rather people see it first and then have their reaction away from me, in their homes or at their breakfast tables, and not in front of me. Because that would be too hard, for me AND them.
"There's going to come a time soon when I take off my headscarf and I don't want to walk into Tesco's or wherever and have people staring at me with their mouths open.
"And yes, maybe it's easier for me to do something like this because I've lived my life in the public eye. It's what I do. But I actually AM sensitive. I AM human and I want to get this over with," she added.